In the thick of it...

Courage doesn't always roar. 

Sometimes 

courage is the quiet voice 

at the end of the day saying, 

"I will try again tomorrow."

I can still picture the very first time I read this quote. It was on the cover of a journal that was for sale at the Discovery Store in Tucson Mall. I don't know where I was at in my life that this quote 

spoke so directly to my heart, 

but I bought that journal on the spot. 

I suppose it is still around here somewhere. 

But this quote continues to speak to me.

It whispers my name on days when I am just too tired. 

When the pace has been too much

and I feel defeated.

I know that it will get better.

I know that I will look back in May 

and see how much they have grown, 

how far they have come.

But today...

today I can't quite see it. 

So I am being courageous.

I am looking back at today and saying

you didn't kill me today

so I must be a little bit 

STRONGER

And tomorrow 

is a

NEW

day.

And if nothing else....

the day after that is Saturday. 

Oy.

27 kids
4 loads of laundry waiting to be put away
3 atomic bombs that have gone off in my house (G's room, N's room, and the kids bathroom)
9,102 things to do for school
dust 1 inch high on every surface of my house
grass in the backyard...up to my knees...that we didn't plant and don't have a lawn mower to get rid of
did I mention 27 kids
4 hours too few of sleep each night
a freezer stuffed to the gills but with nothing to make for supper
enough crumbs on the kitchen floor to feed Remy and all his family (think Ratatouille) 
a wall that needs painting
shelves that need building
floors that need cleaning
27 kids
lessons that need planning
a laundry room that needs de-cluttering
a van that needs washing
papers to cut
papers to laminate
pictures to print
names to cut
a school newsletter that needs writing
27 kids
sub plans that need writing (3 days worth, yikes!)
and one tired mama that is already dreaming of labor day weekend


in my next life I am going to have an assistant